I will never forget.

Here it is 2 1/2, almost 3 years, later and I still think about my little brother Jesse almost everyday. It's amazing how there's healing for the lose of someone so close to you, yet, it still hurts your heart so much. A dear friend of mine just passed the 4 year anniversay of her little brother's death and it just blew my mind that it had been four years for her family, and alomost 3 for mine. Time has flown by so qucikly, and it feels like we the police were walking up to us to tell us, just yesterday.

Tonight, I randomly started looking up more information on recent Foresthill bridge jumpers, and just yesterday someone jumped to their death from that were bridge. He made "at least" #44 since the bridge was built 36 years ago. My heart goes out to his family, cause I have an understanding of how they are feeling. Also, my heart still goes out to all of the other 43 families, including my own. It's crazy to know that this continues to occur. It's not like I do not expect it to, but there is so much that I want to do to help prevent it. But what? Is there anything? Ultimately, it is in the Lord's hands.

The Foresthill bridge is a beautiful place... GOREGOUS for that matter- showing all of God's wonderful creation and I hate knowing that it is a place of such sadness, grief, anger, and bitterness for so many of us... even I still cringe when I think about it. The first time I came home from the Honor Academy on vacation, I felt a great need to go out to the bridge and just pray. I did not know what exactly for, but I do know that I want to see that place for the beauty that surrounds it and not as a place for people to end their lives.

I miss my little brother so much. I go to school and sit in classes with people that once knew him... or see his old best friend... it breaks my heart. The pain never seems to fully go away. It's crazy to be back in this same little town again and in the same house for that matter.

Either way, I continue to trust the Lord as He so faithfully brings the true healing we all need. I hope and pray that the other families will come to know the Lord through the lose of their loved ones as well. Some people take it all out on God... others compeltely rely on Him to get through this. Jesus-- You are the way the truth and the life. I praise you for what has happened in my life, because I know that you will receive the glory from it ultimately.



In Loving Memory of Jesse de Puglia
September 12th, 1990- June 27th, 2006